Gay, Nazi and half-Japanese – the end result of Asian self-hatred

As a former almost-Nazi myself, the reason I embraced the ideology was because:

1. My father was a literal Nazi and married an Asian woman to “take back the power” against Jews and black men. He blamed feminism for turning white women against white men and sleeping with black / Mexican men. This is incredibly common for far-right white men to seek out East Asian women as “replacement” white women who will support racist white men in their battle against change.
2. My mother and my Chinese family were generally white worshipping and always liked to tout how beautiful and white looking Eurasians were, so obviously I was insecure about being half-Asian, because I witnessed Asians being bullied and turned down by girls.

As for the gay thing?

I think a lot of half-Asian men are gay after witnessing their mothers marry white men they don’t love and use for money, hence turning many half-Asian men off of the idea of women actually loving men. Witnessing the typical awkward, asexual WMAF marriage, combined with the societal ideals that whiteness is ideal as the best “provider” male, whereas Asian men are seen as a non-entity, can make young half-Asian boys more prone to being gay.

How many 1000’s of young men are out there like this? Keep in mind half-Asians are almost exclusively raised by white men and Asian mothers.

I think what saved me is that deep down I wasn’t really ever proud to be white. As I said I look more Asian than both these guys due to my pronounced cheekbones so it wasn’t really ever hard for me to find partners of any race despite having no money.