The living hell of being a half Asian man with a white dad / Asian mom

You know – before we begin – I’d like to talk about how happy I used to be a long time ago. Then I learned that there’s something called “gendered racism” against Asian men, and it was everywhere and it cut the soul out of my body and even 17 years later I haven’t recovered. So, let me tell you how I really feel. I was in denial for years about how bad it was because my parents and Asian family successfully brainwashed me into thinking I was white – but around 23 I realized that I literally wasn’t. I recently looked at some kid photos of myself and realized that I looked way more dark and ethnic than I had ever imagined myself.

Also, let me stop you right there before you talk about “muh Wasian celebrities” or “Joji” or “Keanu” or “some hapa you know with a 300k a year job and his mid white wife.”

I’m talking about the generalities here of being half-Asian and male, in the western world. For every “successful Wasian” you can name, I can go outside and see 100 WMAF couples, 0 AMWF, and like 15 “Wasian” men walking around totally alone, even with their dad’s money. Whenever I look around and try to find a normal “Wasian” man, he’s always gay, weird, into extreme military shit (i.e., gay), or weird.

Reason why? NOBODY WANTS ASIAN LOOKS ON A MAN. Period. On women – Asian looks are passable because they provide companionship for lonely incel white dudes with cash on hand. But on men – forget it.

I’m just gonna copy and paste from Twitter.

Being a half-Asian male is basically a fate worse than death.

1) Our own mothers generally hate Asian male looks. Asian culture is ruthless and marrying a white man just because he’s white, not because you love him, is basically seen as “a thing one must do,” for no real reason other than “just because.”

2) Insane bullying only against Asian males, with Asian women joining in.

3) My own mother hoped for daughters, cause they’re easier to assimilate into western society than half Asian men. She told my brother this, and I recently learned from him about two years ago that she had told him this. My OWN MOTHER hoped for daughters.

4) 99% of half Asian women get with white men. Both AMWF and WMAF are like this. Of the two dozen or so Wasian girls I know, 100% of them married a white guy.

5) Dad was a Nazi sympathizing autist with major aspbergers. He was a Holocaust denier, read books by Pat Buchanan, Ezra Pound, Enoch Powell, and all kinds of far right stuff.

6) Mom tried to kill me on several occasions, I guess for looking too Asian.

7) Bullied for being Asian by non-Asian guys who used to get Asian girls.

8) Had an Asian girl tell me I should go back to China to get laid. She had a white boyfriend

9) Own family member bragged about how Caucasian one of my female cousin’s kids looked. “She doesn’t look Chinese at all! That’s awesome!” This was about October 2025.

10) Aunt’s boyfriend went on a rant about Muslims last CNY when we heard the call to prayer outside of their apartment building.

11) Met a Chinese girl at a party. Told her I was half-Chinese and she went “ew” and walked away

12) Most of my Asian American male friends are so mentally beaten they make fun of me for speaking Chinese. Most of them are single pushing 40.

13) 100% of my former friends made fun of me for being Asian.

15) My brother is a 40 year old Trump supporting Nazi who believes slavery should be reinstated. Thinks he’s white and wants to be an “all American boy.” Also a fucking virgin at 40.

16) My aunt always tries to ask me if I think I look more like dad or mom (white or Asian), hoping I say white. I don’t look white.

17) Mental problems from meeting white people and hearing them say racist shit thinking I won’t care because I’m half white.

18) Asians gaslight me constantly telling me I’m privileged and white when I’ve literally had the shit kicked out of me by Polish gangsters in Brooklyn. I look so Chinese that old Chinese men outside of China look at me and smile.

19) Every Asian girl in my family is with a white guy and these guys are uniformly ugly and / or racist or both.

20) Every half Asian girl I’ve ever met whether her mom or dad is white, gets with a white man.

21) Only girls who like me were Indian / black, mom made us break up by telling me black girl would give me AIDS. Exes were Indian and my dad shamed me with his religious brainwashing out of having sex with them, and yeah I believed him.

22) Because I’m tall people in the US think I’m mainland Chinese and treat me like absolute shit, especially if they’re Asian.

23) WMAF couples stare at me when I try to just eat lunch or dinner alone. I’ve had a couple just sit there and fucking look up with spoonfuls of congee in their mouth just looking at me like they were trying to gauge if I’m “okay” or not with their shit.

24) Police / customs agents have profiled me before coming back into the USA from China. I was born like 1.25 miles away from Laguardia airport.

25) Former “good friend” told me “bigguuhh Amelican penis” (South Park reference) when I told him I was going back to China. This same guy could only get with Asian and half-Asian girls.

26) When I talk about or try to complain about my racist white family my Chinese family just claims that I’m mentally ill and that I need to “focus on career”

27) my mom weighed 75 lbs at her death due to starving herself out of depression at marrying my dad

28) mom beat the shit out of my brother and I to take out her anger at getting with my Nazi dad

29) mom used to make fun of dad while he ate so he would eat with his face in his hands

30) mom would pull us into bed and have covert emotional incest

31) I’ve had literal Asian women roll their eyes at me and try to show PDA to their mid white boyfriends in front of me… for the crime of being (half) asian and sitting next to them in a church or airport

32) Gay Asian TSA agents harass me because they think I’m Chinese

33) get asked “where I’m from” almost once a week despite looking CLEARLY EuroAsian but that doesn’t mean shit because I’m basically full Chinaman to westerners

34) Asian Americans tell me to STFU bc I’m “white” but in China, cops looked me in face n were surprised I was foreign

35) There is ZERO community for biracial Asians bc most biracial Asians online are homosexuals emasculated by their WMAF golddigging moms and racist dads, and basically 100% of #Wasian girls marry white dudes

36) When I was like 11 my Chinese cousin used to bring home these huge Jewish guys and have loud sex with me downstairs, downright sexual abuse

37) Her sister told me that she couldn’t wait to leave China to “kiss all the white people in NYC” (NYC is 40% white)

My Chinese mom lied to me about China and how anti-communism is just incels hating on good looking guys

This is an interesting photo. This is some Chinese female politician whose entire shtick is “muh right wing,” “muh guns,” “anti-communist” grifting Republicanism. Just the usual stuff my ambiguous looking, 40 year old unmarried, virgin brother pushes me all the time; despite me, a Chinese looking kid who lost his virginity at 12, speaks Chinese, doesn’t eat western food, etc., having been a communist since I first heard about Tiananmen Square in middle school, and instinctively knew it was bullshit.

She posted a video on her Twitter of her Chinese father walking with a walker through an empty, grey, field in the middle of some rural American area, and it was so pathetic to witness. This idea of Chinese men being treated terribly while their daughters get with white men for clout. Meanwhile in China, I see Chinese old men her father’s age, dancing with their wives in flower gardens, malls, on the street ALL THE TIME.

If you read her bio she literally met her demonstrably unattractive husband on her first day in America. Meaning she married the first white guy she could find, and the only one willing to do it was some ugly white dude. This is really the situation with most half-Asians (then our mothers wonder why half-Asian men wind up being virgins for life).

I looked up her sons and none of them are married despite being 30+, despite being in the US military and all that jazz that these incels usually get into to prove they’re “real men,” aka “real Americans.” Typical fare for unattractive men – cope with money, expressions of unfair power, violence, etc.

When I went to China in 2012, I realized my suspicions were right, and China wasn’t a shithole like my mom said it was. She used to tell me trash like “when I first came to America, everything was so big!” But when I went to China, even in 2012, it was the TOTAL OPPOSITE for me – everything was MASSIVE HERE.

Instead, I went to China cause I wanted to live somewhere that wasn’t as stiff, greedy, expensive and fake as the US and I could continue my habit of being a player and getting hot girls. It turns out my mom and her family left China because they were ugly, their dad was a player who apparently used to fuck around on my grandma, and they thought that in America they could fill a hole in their little celibate lives by getting a lot of money and proving they’re “practically white.”

China was raised up and managed to function for all those years due to good healthy sexual dynamics between men and women, and was rich in culture and not this sterile, empty, live in the woods type weird shit that white guys with their Chinese mail order brides and incel hapa sons get up to. Communism is the economic system of guys who don’t need money to get laid, don’t believe that war and violence and greed is the answer to life, while capitalism and war is the system for men who cannot. Gene flow from China to America is basically ugly, greedy genes merging with ugly, greedy white genes, making America more greedy, incel and ugly, whereas in China there is more gene refinement towards looks, making China stronger than ever.

White guys with Asian partners don’t want Asian sons, and vice versa

WMAF couples don’t want Asian sons, don’t really want mixed children at all, and just want white children, because whiteness = default and the easiest way of life, and barring that, they could not find a white woman to help them achieve this.

Don’t get it twisted, this is exactly what they wanted. My mother TOLD ME that she hoped for daughters, not sons, because daughters are easier to marry off into white supremacy.

An Asian appearing son is a lot of trouble, because, why not? We’re not white. There’s so much that goes into having a non-white son when it comes to navigating the same society you hoped to create – one where whiteness is the default and everything else is punished – so why would you want a mixed Asian son, not a white one?

Not a single white guy alive with a mixed race Asian son would willingly trade places with his son, or any Asian appearing guy.

Geoge Zimmerman had a white dad

This is funny cause I think it predates Elliot Rodger.

George Zimmerman has a white father / what I’m assuming is a Peruvian immigrant mom, and so he was insecure about not being fully white, his dad was probably some right-winger open or closeted racist, and his mom just another self-hating “majora la raza” type.

So now we’ve got George, with his white dad’s low cheekbone / unattractive bone structure, plus his mom’s coloring – which he’s super insecure about…

Then along comes Trayvon Martin who triggers super-insecure virgin hapa-lite George Zimmerman who assumes Trayvon is fucking many white girls with his BBC. And so George is itching to shoot a nigga, and boom.

This is hilarious because THIS IS ALL IT’S ABOUT. Sex, or lack of sex.

White and white-adjacent boys get mad at sexy dudes with high cheekbones who have girls throwing themselves at them, but don’t work, while ugly boys get nothing, so they cope with racism or ordering a mail-order-bride for a dead bedroom and mixed race kids, to complete the cycle.

Of course if I were to tell a bunch of women of color this, they will fight to the death for their right to have sexless marriages with white men, rather than those “cheating, playboy men of color.” And maybe if they’re lucky their sons will do what Georgey boy did.

Hybrid vigor? A racist white supremacist myth

The whole idea that a child will have hybrid vigor because his father is a white man is a joke. Of course you’re going to have the “Wasians” come in here with their banking jobs and their sexless marriages to gold-digging white women, telling me “oh you’re just a bitter Asian man!” Despite the fact that I literally get followed around in public by women who think I’m full Korean (despite being Chinese).

In fact, the idea of white supremacy creating more beautiful children is a joke. Particularly if your dad is an ugly man, which is the case in many WMAF. Unless you want to tell me that Joji Miller (who admitted he can’t get a girl without money and fame), is an example of a highly sexually successful mixed-Asian male, then my point stands.

The reality is that a lot of women get with white men for the money – and just make up stuff about the children being superior simply to cover up for what is flat out racism. Saying “I only want kids with a white man because they’ll be beautiful” is easier to say than “I am having kids with a white guy cause he has money.”

In reality, there are men of color out there that have women take care of them based on their looks. High cheekbones, protruding cheekbones, thick lips, gorgeous dark coloring, but then these guys don’t work and are lazy (hence many non-white countries are socialist and lazy, let’s be real) cause women throw themselves at them, and then wind up cheating – so these women go find some ugly white guy she can take money from and deadbedroom without him complaining, because he has no other options. A lot of women of color marry white men for the explicit purpose of having an ugly man who cannot possibly cheat – so in a lot of ways, it’s a downgrade from an evolutionary perspective because most female animals want a male who is highly prolific and able to reproduce the most for the betterment of the species.

If you really look at it, the white parent is actually a step down, because all animals by nature want a male that is sexually successful, and that’s what people of color are: more sexually successful in general, hence high populations.

Theory on why biracial Asians and “Wasians” have such high rates of suicide and other deviant behavior

I think a lot of half-Asians are basically born knowing that love doesn’t exist.

Nothing screams “true love isn’t real” than mass outmarriage of Asian women to white men.

Nothing screams “fake marriage” more than women who deny their entire race of men in favor of another race just for money and integration purposes or some ulterior motive.

That could also explain why so many half-Asians and other biracials are gay or LGBT.

What causes Asian male self-hatred?

Red Pill Hong Kong 🇭🇰🇨🇳 on X: “CONGRATZ if you know what he’s saying. All I know is, he’s angry at China. It’s cool if people in Hong Kong don’t speak English well. But this is the UK. It’s shameless becoming an activist in an English-speaking country and not able to speak English. 🤦🤦🤦 https://t.co/kvPkYl00Ui” / X

Here’s a video of some kind of Wasian or hapacel taking out his helpless, infertile, impotent sexual frustration by yelling at a cloud, aka, China, for British people to hear.

When I was in England, even back in 2010, I was hyper aware of the fact that I wasn’t wanted there. I got happy slapped. I had a British Born Chinese girl make fun of me for being a virgin for some reason (I wasn’t a virgin).

I always wondered what caused this kind of frantic insane behavior against China.

As an Asian presenting male, wouldn’t you WANT China to be great, so that you had something to be proud of? Women actually like and want to fuck guys who are proud of themselves, so why work against that?

My guess is that these Wasiancels subconsciously fear the rise of China because it means their fragile position as a shucking-and-jiving loser for crumbs of white pussy will evaporate once being a proud Asian is normalized.

But that’s too complicated.

I think these losers see China as the “bad boy” Asians who got pussy and bullied them like their proud Asian friends did and it bothers them that despite “acting white” they still got nothing.

That, or their self-hating moms made them this way. Since the moms hated China and Asian men, obviously the son is going to take this to the next level, since it’s hard coded into his very blood that Asian men = inferior.

Gay, Nazi and half-Japanese – the end result of Asian self-hatred

As a former almost-Nazi myself, the reason I embraced the ideology was because:

My father was a literal Nazi and married an Asian woman to “take back the power” against Jews and black men. He blamed feminism for turning white women against white men and sleeping with black / Mexican men. This is incredibly common for far-right white men to seek out East Asian women as “replacement” white women who will support racist white men in their battle against change.
My mother and my Chinese family were generally white worshipping and always liked to tout how beautiful and white looking Eurasians were, so obviously I was insecure about being half-Asian, because I witnessed Asians being bullied and turned down by girls.

As for the gay thing?

I think a lot of half-Asian men are gay after witnessing their mothers marry white men they don’t love and use for money, hence turning many half-Asian men off of the idea of women actually loving men. Witnessing the typical awkward, asexual WMAF marriage, combined with the societal ideals that whiteness is ideal as the best “provider” male, whereas Asian men are seen as a non-entity, can make young half-Asian boys more prone to being gay.

How many 1000’s of young men are out there like this? Keep in mind half-Asians are almost exclusively raised by white men and Asian mothers.

I think what saved me is that deep down I wasn’t really ever proud to be white. As I said I look more Asian than both these guys due to my pronounced cheekbones so it wasn’t really ever hard for me to find partners of any race despite having no money.

The most oppressed races are the ones with high cheekbones

I found this guy’s post history and I thought this was interesting. It lines up perfectly.

Blacks, Asians, and Amerindians fall into the “high cheekbone” category. All three of these groups historically have endured the absolute worst oppression.

Whites, Arabs and Indians fall into the Caucasian categories. All of these are heavily steeped in religion, money-culture and castes.

Let’s for a minute factor in the idea that males with high cheekbones are seen as more beautiful by women and vice versa. Leading to less sexual conflict between men and women because women are more reciprocal towards men with these beauty markers. Hence much higher birth rates. These groups also tend to be poorer due to less “ambition.”

This would line up perfectly with the fact that oppression has historically been directed towards “more beautiful men.” Or at least, societies with more beautiful men. It would make sense for western societies to invite in and form parity relationships with Arabs (Saudis), and Indians (Trump and JD Vance), while promoting discrimination against the “high cheekbone” groups. Socialism also seems to have an easier time taking root in countries with these physical markers. Hence Eastern Europeans are socialist.

A map of socialist countries. All countries with ethnic groups with high cheekbones.

For example:

Northeast Indians look Asian and are oppressed. Meanwhile, Caucasian Indians are invited into western countries by the millions.

Same with Hazara in Afghanistan. Filipinos are abused in Arab countries. So are Africans. However, some Arab groups have high cheekbones, like Syrians, who are oppressed.

Indigenous people in South America are treated the worst compared to the Mestizo class.

Wouldn’t be surprised if there was an African equivalent.

I watched a video of a young black guy being refused entry to an all white town in South Africa. I was staring at how strong and insanely good his facial features (cheekbones and great forward projection) were compared to the white men. It was really obvious. Black people have excellent forward cheekbone growth that looks more similar to Asians and Amerindians than it does to other ethnic groups.

This isn’t a coincidence.

How I became a half-Asian Nazi and why I’ll always live in shame because of this

What scares me is how easy it was to do this.

My brother is still a 40+ year old virgin with far right beliefs and I sincerely believe he wants to bring slavery back.

Do I have an excuse? No. But I can understand how this happened. As I said many times, my father was a pathological narcissist who wanted to “feel big” and basically fight back against what he saw as social change that penalized him as a white man – and he obviously had a problem with white women sleeping with black and non-white men – thus a “traditional” Asian woman was his methodology of achieving this. People take the path of least resistance in life, because life is a zero sum game and people are awful and evil – yes; even one’s parents. My dad was one of those guys who believed sex was evil, black men shouldn’t get with white or any women, that the Holocaust didn’t happen, that Jews ran society, that horror movies were evil, that the whole world was an evil place out to get him – rather than adapting to it. In reality he probably was a sexually frustrated autistic incel who never experienced the happiness and pleasures of life so all he could do was extrapolate his hatred onto the world.

Naturally, his sons would have inherited this narcissism and racism. I also have an adopted Asian uncle who literally thinks that he’s a white man – driving big trucks, wearing an American flag on his hat, talking like a weirdo redneck, wearing shorts in winter time, all around being a cringe knockoff of a white man. Why? Well – insecurity I suppose. I’ve heard both of them make comments about black men banging white women; talking about how bad immigration is; how much they love Trump.

Yes, that’s what it’s about. It’s a pathological fear of black men. Fear of sex. I went through this phase. My father was like this – deathly afraid of sex and women, which I think is why he went for an Asian woman – who he must have felt was asexual and predictable enough not to sleep with a black guy for fun. But before that, I wasn’t like this. I think a lot of my behavior stemmed from the subtle bullying and alienation I felt for being Asian. From friends, family, etc., the endless subtle comments. So it was easy for me to be swept up into Naziism. I wanted to be white at one point, but not really; I was also very proud of being ‘cool’. I was deeply insecure about being Asian for a while, as a result of the insane amount of microaggressions and betrayals. I remember in college – I had a crush on a black girl, and even she slept with one of my racist white friends, and I think that did major trauma to my brain, subconsciously. Naturally – I wanted to be white like my friend. After all – my mother had married a racist white man, not an Asian man, and to feel like I belonged and was “part of it all,” it seemed simpler for me to just adapt far-right politics in order to justify my newfound racism, my attempt to feel like I was higher on the hierarchy, despite being “lowly and weird Asian in blood.” When you’re surrounded by the toxicity eventually it becomes overbearing and you just want to fit in and belong, ESPECIALLY if they were people who were supposed to love and care about you.

I don’t feel I’ll ever live this down, because at the time I knew what I was doing. I was acting out of insecurity, and to this date I don’t know if I will ever be truly comfortable with being Asian. None of my Asian friends are; they’re ALL self-hating. Deep down, I was able to escape the far-right pipeline because I realized that I was a decent guy, and didn’t relate to the stagnation and sterile nature of white society. I remember even deep in my Nazi phase, I went out and befriended random black people at bars, on the street, etc., because I felt like I had more in common with them. Their freedom and coolness. But, again, I realize this was a luxury, to escape it. My brother? My 5’2″ Asian uncle? They’re a product of their insecurity, their lifelong brainwashing.

I helped myself by thinking back to how I was before I was, 21, or so. I was ardently anti-racist, and even didn’t like white people, like many New Yorkers, I thought they were cornballs. I didn’t even find the most stereotypical blonde / blue eyed white women attractive at all, to this day, I don’t, but then again, it’s not about what I find attractive – but more what THEY find attractive and as I see now, white supremacy is now going global. I remember growing up watching BET and ONLY being attracted to dark toned women. I don’t know what happened; I was introduced to some far-right anti-Jewish thought by some roommates of mine senior year of college (one was Persian, one was black, ironically) and I think from there I started to read some filth and it permanently screwed my brain up.

Nowadays, my brother is so brainwashed and in so deep on his racism that even at 40 he’s not willing to give it up. My father had brainwashed him and I to feel that IQ, “culture,” etc., made us more valuable than blacks, Latinos – aka, “wild,” “savage,” “oversexed” people. And all of his failures are due to mental illness rather than his own inability to function in the real world with equal competition. He believes HE deserves women and power, not “low IQ” black men.

I don’t think there’s a solution to this. It’s all I can do – just write.